The squanderer

It's funny how I keep myself busy these days... The amount of time I spend on things I really don't care about is astonishing when compared to the amount of things that I would like to be doing with my life. I keep saying "I'm too busy to do this, I'm too busy to do that..." But what am I really busy with? It seems like I am just squandering my time; I'm standing still in the middle of the road when I should be running, chasing, towards what truly inspires me.


There are just so many distractions keeping my from reaching my ultimate goal. I see a fork in the road, and I am standing still, not knowing what to do. Which path do I take when this fork has 5 prongs? And all the while I'm complaining about my "misfortunes," I could actually be making a choice and pursue what really drives my passion. But why am I just standing still? Is it because I'm afraid what lies beyond? Am I afraid of failing? Maybe because if I put my heart and soul into something, only to crash and burn, it would be too much for me to handle. Perhaps just making an excuse and saying, "I'm too busy," makes it easier to bear.

The innocence of what you are is what I want

I had a really fun shoot yesterday with my friends :) I lived with these guys last year during college and they are some of the coolest kids I know!

This lovely lady in the picture with me is Camille C. and you can find her over at http://www.lookbook.nu/mill3c

Photography done by Stephanie at http://stepinthere.tumblr.com/
and Allison at http://www.lookbook.nu/allimarie

Bigger, better, brighter future

Sometimes we all dwell a little too much on the negative things that are thrust upon us. At times, I tend to feel like a loser, like I can't do anything right. I get frustrated thinking about what could have been, but wasn't. But it's in those moments that I need to remind myself of how lucky I really am. I have wonderful friends who support me, and a wonderful family that has always been there for me.

Life is not as bad as you think.

College just started up for me not too long ago. I'm taking 3 courses with labs: Biology, Organic Chemistry, and Physics. This is going to be a pretty tough quarter. Unfortunately I have a habit of procrastinating a lot, which always gets me into trouble because I never finish what I need to do on time... Oh well, I just need to work a bit harder to resist my urges of browsing the internet.

My hand on a Coca-Cola display set at Ralph's

As far as my career in the entertainment industry goes, I haven't booked anything theatrical since last year... This kind of bums me out, considering how many auditions I've gotten. And I've been so close to getting the part, too! So many times on so many different parts! Hopefully the right part will come for me soon. In the meantime, I've been able to book a few print jobs here and there. I was able to find my hand (just my hand) recently while browsing the grocery store. They gave me a digital manicure LOL

Let's keep our fingers crossed for bigger and better things! :D

From this moment on, I'm changing the way I feel...

I went for a much more clean-cut look this time around! These are my only pair of shorts that actually fit me... I need to find some more, because it's still pretty hot over here :)

Someday, when my life has passed me by...

This is a pretty simple look. It seemed better in the mirror than it did on camera though lol I got the t-shirt from a To Write Love On Her Arms event at UCRiverside last year. I got the suspenders from a Halloween costume I got last year as a lumberjack :T

And yes, I like to wear suspenders AND belts at the same time hahaha and... no shoes